“Everything is a self-portrait.”
— Diary By: Chuck Palahniuk
She Is My Imaginary.
I made a new best friend. They call her Ana for short. She may be around for a while. Just until things get back on track. Afterwards, if there is an afterwards I do hope that she leaves, but I expect she can be a somewhat unpredictable character. She is my imaginary, she is my illusion, she is the temporary best friend that I have never once had. She is the bracelet on my wrist, the voice in my head, the disdain I need to get me though to the edge of where I once was.
Definitions Of Cognitive Disorders.
1. All-or-Nothing Thinking: You see things in black and white categories. If your performance falls short of perfect, you see yourself as a total failure.
2. Overgeneralization: You see a single negative event[s] as a never-ending pattern of defeat.
3. Mental Filter: You pick out a single negative detail and dwell on it exclusively so that your vision of all reality becomes darkened, like the drop of ink that colours the entire beaker of water.
4. Disqualifying the Positive: You reject positive experiences by insisting they ‘don’t count’ for some reason or another. In this way you can maintain a negative belief that is contradicted by your everyday experiences.
5. Jumping to Conclusions: You make a negative interpretation even though there are no definite facts that convincingly support your conclusion.
a. Mind Reading: You arbitrarily conclude that someone is reacting negatively to you, and you don’t bother to check this out. b. The Fortune Teller Error: You anticipate that things will turn out badly, and you feel convinced that your prediction is an already-established fact.
6. Magnification (Catastrophizing) of Minimization: You exaggerate the importance of things or you inappropriately shrink things until they appear tiny. This is also called the ‘binocular trick’.
7. Emotional Reasoning: You assume that your negative emotions necessarily reflect the way things really are: “I feel it, therefor it must be true.”
8. Should Statments: You try to motivate yourself with should’s and shouldn’t, as if you had to be whipped and punished before you could be expected to do anything. ’Musts’ and ‘oughts’ are also offenders. The emotional consequence is guilt. When you direct should statements towards others, you feel anger, frustration, and resentment.
9. Labelling and Mislabeling: This ia an extreme form of overgeneralization. Instead of describing your error, you attach a negative label to yourself: “I’m a loser.” When someone else’s behaviour rubs you the wrong way, you attach a negative label to him: “He’s a goddam louse.” Mislabeling involves describing an event with language that is highly coloured and emotionally loaded.
10. Personalization: You see yourself as the cause of some negative external event which in fact you were not primarily responsible for.
“One truly gets the impression that every shape on space, every spatial plane, constitutes a mirror and produces a mirage effect; that within each body the rest of the world is reflected, and reffered back to, in an ever-renewed to-and-fro of reciprocal reflection.”
— Henri Lefebvre
I Thought Of Ten.
[1] Sitting between two people on a bus [2] Asking someone how they are [3] Giving advice of help to others [4] Saying what I feel and think [5] Smiling [6] Asking questions [7] Being the first to speak [8] Going out without makeup [9] Looking straight ahead while walking [10] Eating in front of others who are not.
“When I wake up, I have to remember all over again that my dreams are not real and that reality is not a dream.”
— Thanks for the Memories By: Cecelia Ahern
Finally A Time.
She was hurt and I never would of thought if she didn’t say anything. I know I don’t make an effort to see her, but I didn’t think she thought about it much or ever. I suppose it goes to show how you never really know what people think about things. My assumption was that she was busy with her own life, and i was but a small part of that life. But it turns out my part may not be so small. The day we did spend together went well, I actually had a great time. It was nice to spend some time with a friend, it’s amazing how easy it is to forget how simple it is to have a good time. I feel that now is a good time to make a promise. A promise that insists I spend more time with this friend, or any friend. Because I will have a good time, and its worth any and all of the preliminary anxiety.
On This Day.
In 1893 women vote in a national election for the first time: the New Zealand general election.
In 1914 following a war induced closure in July, the New York Stock Exchange re-opens for bond trading.
In 1964 NASA launches the Mariner 4 toward Mars.
In 1820 Friedrich Engels, German philosopher was born.
“I hope the people who wrote those songs are happy. I hope they feel it’s enough.”
— The Perks of Being a Wallflower By:Stephen Chbosky
